so many blog entries have come and gone without making it out of my head. it's been a long time since i've posted anything here. and that's ok. i thought i would tonight. but i'm sleepy. and blank. and feeling censored because what i really wanted to write about tonight was all the communications i've been receiving just over the past few days from ex's, and so seemingly out of the blue. ex's as in ex-husband, ex-abstinent-lover, ex-potential-lover, ex-i-don't-know-what-to-call-him, but at least two of them are probably reading this (hi.), so now i don't want to. i just want to curl up in a ball and sleep, wake up not needing to speak, not needing to write back, not questioning what was already written or said, not questioning what will be said or written. just being. clear and open and free and light. and so i will. curl up in a ball and sleep now. wake up tomorrow, sprawled out, arms and eyes and heart open wide.
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