Sometimes I forget

Sometimes fear takes over and I forget that uncertainty and the unknown can be exciting. I forget about the benefits of mystery and surprise. Uncertainty and the unknown can be wonderfully exciting and liberating instead of, or IN ADDITION to, being scary. Sometimes I forget that.

And sometimes I forget that sometimes the questions are more important than the answers. Sometimes this is related to uncertainty and the unknown. The answers to some questions aren't always clear. And even when they are, for how long will they remain? Things change. All we have is this moment. Sometimes I want to know what the future holds. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I want to know what things mean. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I want to talk everything out and analyze things to death-- Sometimes I forget about that "death" part; sometimes I forget that striving to understand everything is not only tiring at times but also takes away from those elements of surprise and mystery that go along with uncertainty.

Sometimes I forget what I wanted to say. Sometimes I forget to shut my mouth or keep my laptop closed. Sometimes I forget to just sit with myself. Sometimes I forget about the benefits of patience and silence and stillness and time.....