5:30 a.m.-7 a.m.: wake up, stretch, breathe, go to pool. practice breathing under water, wonder if it's better for my eyes to be opened or closed under water, float around and just play for awhile, want to be a mermaid, want to swim with dolphins, want to go to the pool 2-3 times a week.
8:30 a.m.: conversation with laura, first about qigong and then about opportunities and focus (or lack of focus) and why i'm not writing and why i feel i should be writing and pressure. do i think i have more opportunities than others? do i think i owe a debt because i survived my car accident? have i felt a sense of pressure ever since my accident? yes, i have. and with that realization, i feel a lump in my throat, i feel on the verge of tears, i feel the pressure lightening up and releasing me.
9 a.m.- 12 pm: drive to seattle, meet renee outside of the courthouse, go up and see my dad's new chambers, go to the seattle library with renee (first time inside this new building). being in the library feels like being in the future. i look down from the 5th floor and ask renee if anybody's ever jumped over the railing, we talk about our sometimes morbid thoughts and go up to the top floor, walk through library pretty fast so that i can get back to my car, say goodbye to renee and go back to car.
12-1 pm: go to whole foods to get something salty and something with protein. i discover that mary's gone crackers has put out a new product that are like pretzl sticks, so i try them and like them. leave whole foods and drive to zoo area for craniosacral review and session with a t.a. get there early and call my brother. find out he and his fiance are planning a trip to brazil in february and i'm invited. do i cancel one of the trips planned for january and march, or do i do them all? typical. once again i'm questioning travel opportunities. i want to delete the word "opportunity" from my vocabulary. it's starting to sound like a bad word. how crazy is that?!
1-3:15pm: craniosacral review goes well. in craniosacral session, the therapist says, "your sacrum is like a puppy, but your lumbars are saying 'enough already!'" i open my eyes shocked by her analogy. i ask if i had told her last time i was there that i was offered a puppy. no i hadn't told her. so i tell her about the puppy situation. coincidence, or did she pick up on something?
3:15-4:30pm: leave session, see i have a message from a new acquaintance saying that he's waiting for me at whole foods. i'm surprised because i thought we weren't meeting. but i'm free to meet, so i go back to whole foods, meet him, and i'm hungry, so i suggest we try an indonesian place i've never been to before. we walk down the street and i eat indonesian food for the first time ever while getting to know this new person. we mostly discuss traveling and also getting out of office jobs. he says he only wants to do what he enjoys. i like the sound of that.
4:30-6pm: after eating, i don't want to go back to anacortes because it's rush hour. we decide to go for a walk and discover a hidden gem of a park nearby. and then i say goodbye so that i can get on the road, but i end up going into a shoe store to buy sandals instead. and then i go into a clothing store and admire the skirts but tell the sales lady that i tend to buy skirts and never wear them for lack of matching shirts that look good with them. she offers to help. i say i don't feel like trying on clothes but will come back next week.
6-7pm: i go to my car and decide to go back to the clothing store. none of the tops she picks out for me work out, but i find two beautiful skirts and a greek goddess style shirt. the shirt doesn't match the skirts, but i don't care. i buy all three, confident that i will make good use of them. along with my sandals. especially in EUROPE!
7-8:30pm: buy some berries at whole foods and eat them on the drive home, pleased with myself for choosing berries instead of chocolate! pleased with myself for freeing myself up to this wonderful day. full of new things. like playing in the pool instead of just swimming in the pool, driving down to seattle just for the day without spending the night, seeing my dad's new chambers, seeing the "new" library, receiving cst from a "new" therapist, meeting a new acquaintance and potential friend (who might teach me how to sail, which would also be new), eating indonesian food, finding a new park, etc.... i drive home with a grin on my face thinking about this day, thinking i will post a blog entry, mulally-style, which means recounting the whole day hour by hour. and so i do....
but i don't think i'll do this type of blog entry again. writing it felt fine, but i don't really enjoy reading it!
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